i’m always amazed at how something good can come from something bad.

two of my uncles had a falling out years ago after working together. they wouldn’t talk or look at each other. they would avoid each other at family functions. if one person was in the room, the other wouldn’t go near it. if one found out the other would be at a family party, he wouldn’t go. this was going since before i was born i think so maybe 20 years?

but ever since one developed MS and the other had a nervous breakdown, they started talking to each other. they’re even involved in church things together.

it’s kinda nice you know.

thepinesaredancing:

I do not believe in Christianity because it is oppressive, manipulative, and harmful.

It teaches a person to view themselves as inherently bad. It teaches them to view themselves as stained and dirty and in need of redemption. I can think of no more harmful thing to teach a person than that,…

“Losing my faith certainly has offered up a plethora of questions, yes. Questions about purpose and meaning and the future; all of it. However, I would rather have a bevy of wonder, while steadily chipping away at ideologies that fail to access reality, than rest on a bed of lies, no matter how comfortable they might be.”

this^

i went to see these local bands perform at the coffee shop on campus. Manzanita, formerly known as The Internship, are a band that i’ve seen perform before and fell in love with.

anywho, the lead singer, Moses is amazing and we spoke to him after the show.

best things that he told me

• i look like i play an instrument
• i look like i’m a writer
• i look like i do something creative
• that i should keep cutting my hair this way
• also brought attention to my XX shirt and said he really liked me outfit

i’m glad i look creative. even though i’m not.

i really should get back into writing.

so i’m taking a few books to read while i’m gone.

i was going to buy Game of Thrones but i couldn’t find a copy yesterday. :/

i’m taking 

• Cat’s Eye by Margaret Atwood
• The Mabinogi and Other Medieval Welsh Tales 
• Ficciones by Jorge Luis Borges

i have a copy of Walden Two by B.F. SKinner but i’m not sure i want to take it. have any of you read it before? is it good?

outside i give away nothing. a blank face.

she’s the graceful one that used to be on the drill team in high school to whom dance comes naturally to.

i’m the valedictorian bookworm who slams her elbow while making fun of her.

my mom also packed me some sliced watermelon and a pound of grapes, she knows me so well.

and i got to see my darling pup.

so much love.<3

i just got off the phone with my mom who told me some good news 

my cousin Armando wants to get married the next time my mom goes to mexico because she’s his godmother.

his brother, Ricardo, is also engaged and is supposed to get married in december.

my cousin in texas, Leonel, found out he’s going to have a boy today.

NOW FOR THE BAD STUFF.

my sister and her long distance boyfriend broke up.

i never really liked him. i didn’t hate him necessarily but her ex of 7 years is kinda hard to match.

so my mom was talking about my sister being all sad and she went on to tell me that one of my cousins on my dad’s side also broke off her engagement because the guy was being abusive.

so then she went off on this idea that all the granddaughters of my dads mom are cursed.

all of them are single and have kids, not one has had any luck with men.

the only ones that so far have been “unscathed” are my sister, cousin Jackie, and I.

but then my sister got dumped, is 29 years old and has a hard time meeting men.

Jackie is in a stable relationship, at least from what we can tell, and will probably get engaged to him soon.

and then there’s me. which although i’m young, am not really a favorite among the opposite sex.

now, my mother is the last person that wants me to have a boyfriend at this time but when i talked to her she told me that she was genuinely starting to worry that we (my sister and i) will not find someone.

it just really freaked me out.

i think i may have over done it.

i feel cherry guts sloshing around inside.

yes. yes she did.

#whymymomisbetterthanyourmom