i have to get my laptop replaced and i just want the same model but they don’t have that model anymore.

i’m really frustrated and my brother/sister/dad couldn’t really give a shit. when i get back i’m going to be lectured and made to feel like shit because i am horrible in their eyes.

because the fact that i spilled something on it by accident meant i was messing around and not using it for school.

and maybe i’m being overly sensitive and superficial about this and i shouldn’t be crying but everything feels so overwhelming right now and i haven’t got anyone to really talk to in person in such a long time.

i had my freak out over my financial aid not being enough and kept it to myself. i had my cousin getting sick and not being to properly unleash my sorrow with someone. i haven’t spoken to my best friends in about a month and i feel myself getting cut off from their lives and like i’m being forgotten about completely and now this laptop situation which my siblings will milk because i am the girl who can do no wrong in our family.

it’s just too much.

goodnight.